painful

today is a busy day... work since morning till night with helping my mum... today is hard for me cuz he finally say it... its painful but at least its over.. i don have to worried how to make thing works anymore..... i was tryin so hard to pull myself together and not to cry infront of ppl.. i tried so hard... its so hurtful n disappointing to hear wat he told me.. but at least its d truth.. truth is always hard n painful but i glad he told me in d end...i guess im gona start a new life from tomorrow onwards... so tonight gona go party.. but here i wish him all d best n good luck with wateva he is doin...

my nail

yeah that's my feet.. this the design i did for d cny .. although it was last mth but jus wana share it wit u guys..

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busy day..

today pretty busy... i had customer since 10 30 while i was still sleepin.. but end up more customer i have... not bad for today.. hope evryday will b like this..

i gave my plain, boring name card a design... its a 3d design with swaroski crystal... that's wat i always do when im bored n inspired... i'll do design on things o nails...

bad day!

last nite was happiest nite for d entire week.... met up kat had a few stout n catch up.... she is reli a good frn... she bought me a gift for my bday... it's a oversized clutch from mng.. its reli nice... i love it... we din have a long chat cuz she got drive back this mornin so she left early then i proceed to club to meet my frn..

towards d end met sum new frns... they r doctors, neurosurgeon, forensic n gynae...

they r interesting people.. n wat so funny about is 1 of them actually stay at d same apartment wit me... wat a small world!

we met up again for lunch and went to beach.. was actually enjoyin myself eventhough having hangover... until my mum called askin me to go back ... kinda frustrating..

i was enjoyin myself wit my frn but she always have to find way to spoil my day... cant she say properly? does she need to yell? not like she reli need me to b there ... but y she has to do this to me? there goes my day... now im stuck at home wit hangover and doin d same thing n start thinkin of him again...

new template

i jus found this new template... i was lookin for sumthin gothic but this is the closest i can find.. well i like d effect....

i think there is somethin wrong wit my computer ... whenever im typin sometimes it goes to other sentence and makes me type different thing out.. well i'll try to be carefull .. anyway i was lookin for picture to post unfortunately not much of pic left due to my computer reformat.. was sad that almost all pic is gone.. but still manage to find a few..

i found my nail art pic so i decide to post it up but that was jus beginning when i learn how to do nail art.. there is more in my collection.. mayb later on i'll take pic and post it up...

hope i'll get more inspiration to do my nail arts..

True Friend

yesterday he called... i when i saw him no showed up i have this mixed feelin... happy yet anxious... i duno he called to bring good news or bad news but whichever it is im jus lookin for an answer... i was suprised he called to say he is sorry n he miss me .. i duno whether he said sorry for wat happened n evrythin will be back to normal or he is sorry that thing will continue like this?? i was hoping he will do the endin for me .... but he din wan to...both of us are in d situation where we duno wat to say... well we din tok for long... he had an interview, i hope it went well for him....
woke up by a msg this mornin, was hoping it was his msg.. but it wasnt.. it was from someone i truly treasure n love.. she is my very best frn kat.. she say she is on d way home. ... i was touch n happy that she came back all d way jus to c how im doin... i still remember wat she say last week when i called her up cryin so bad tellin her wat happened... she said she'll try to come back n she did.... she is really a true friend... although i was hoping for the other thing.. actually it was a foolish hope... i was hoping he is on d plane flyin back to c me ... last year at this time he was actually back to be wit me eventhough he has 1 wk holiday but i guess its gona b so diff now... i tried called him once to check out how his interview went.. but guess wat??? he ignore my call again!! so wat was d called mean when he say he is sorry, he miss me n he love me?

another day..

woke up this mornin sitting down duno wat to do.... well still got to do sumthing...
din usual stuff.. but got an extra things to do... wash my granma wound n put new dressing..
i forgot to mention that my granma cut off part of her finger accidentally yesterday morning... it was blood evrywhere when i try to stop bleeding... anyway that was yesterday... i called him this mornin so at least to end things properly.. i know i cant it cuz i love him too much.. i hope he will do it.. but he ignore my call... askin him to say its easyfor him but i duno y he made so hard.. jus say d magic word n thats it.. i feel im hanging in middle of the air .. duno where i stand!!

today is another hard to pass... but i went out to do sum stuff... girl stuff... had my hair washed.. felt good actually... but im still thinkin of him.. i hope i can stop thinkin of him... the time pass so slow. .. its jus half day.... jus hoping for tonight! at least i can take my mind of him.. i hope so ...

so lost~~

i jus felt so hard to past the times these few days.... so many things had happen in these few days... so many... i feel so lost.. so empty.. so frustrated.. i duno wat to do ... i feel im falling but i need to pull myself up again... but its so hard...
evryday when im home my mind start to stray again..... it jus feel so painful .. so i keep findin way to go out wit frns n enjoy myself.. drinkin, eating, chattin .. watever thing dat can come along... i need it so much ... i know i need to do sumthing to it but wat can i do ? its been almost days dat we din speak..... i wonder how he can do it to me?
i wish i can... im restraining myself from calling him cuz i know he will not answer.... whenever i think of him its so painful for me .. i felt so unfair.. i was blame for sumthin dat i din do... for dat reason i've lost sumthin.. i duno how to face my frn afta wat happen... its bcuz of sumthin silly he did n cost this rltship of mine....
at this point i know there is ntg i can do already cuz i've done all i can... right now i need to leave asap... start a new life at a new place where i can put all my sad memories behind ......

my 1st post!!

all this while i duno what do wit blog.. im not a good writter .. evrytime i try to write i'll sit there for hours thinkin how to put it out all together .. . . .but sumhow inside me makes me do it anyway.. jus to express.....

mayb bcuz i have goin tru rough times... these few days has been dreadful for me ...